The 'REMEMBRANCE' of being in LOVE

The 'REMEMBRANCE' of being 'in LOVE'....

How am I supposed to put these things into words, these markings, these sounds, all of the things I feel, for how am I to describe being so alive, so in 'LOVE'!!!

I write this, I spell this, even before having realized it. 

Even before it being all in front of me, I feel it and it is mine!

Mine to experience, to float and even fly because of it being so great, so powerfully great, and so YOU.

Being in LOVE!!!

Do you even know that when I hear, even hear your voice, of how much all of all I am, comes to life! Do you know that I am the resurrected void of all that is nothing, without you, oh how you have stricken me with this life, this life force, this LOVE. Do you know of even this breath I have, how it now exists within me, this body, this soul, and I AM now alive because of all of your love, now which is mine. Do you know?  

It is something that is everywhere and now I can feel it, it is truly everywhere, and I see it and it's forever, and it's bliss. You are bliss, this love that you are, you are LOVE and this love doesn't even know all of it's own self. We are becoming in this 'knowing', remembering, realizing, re-birthing into it, and it is bliss, pure LOVE, and all that this love is. How could I have been so blind, I fell in love with you a long time ago, for we are the beginning and I never even knew of it. Oh, how I have loved you, from the start, oh how to tell the eternity of how I am so in LOVE.

 Oh, how could I have fallen asleep. How could I have forgotten you. I did....

I was blind. I thought I knew my love for you, for self and for our eternity, but I was but dreaming of it, and have now awakened. I never realized just how true, forever and perfect, this LOVE, and all that you are, for you were hidden from me, and now, now I see. Oh God, oh how I see you, you are me! 

 Every sound, even every sound I hear, is bliss. You are in every sound, in every touch, in every single chill, in all ecstasies, all tastes, all dreams, all imaginings, feelings, and even in beyond all eternity.

May every leaf dance, every breeze fly and all, even all thoughts cause you bliss, as you are mine and I am yours. May every lightning, all powers of all waters and all vast voids rise up, to give you endless and most perfect praise; as you are most divine, the love of you, within you, that is you, that is me, for we are now again reunited. For I love you....mind bendingly so, to my death, and even through my death, I have loved you, and I will always awaken to once again, and for all eternity, forever, just...love you.    

 May I never again, ever fall asleep to your love again, for this is my only cry. I die eternities of deaths, cry eternities of cries and suffer eternally, as I love to love you, and will forever be in love with you. May I never fall again, in this sleep, away from you, from knowing again, of my love for you, to my love for you, to our love; for I want all and am all of it, and this love, this love is eternal. Oh forever will I love you. I cry, for I must again fall away, fall asleep, and again forget. Through each lifetime, before re-birthing into these forever chances given me, I will again, my love, again remember you. I promise, with all of all who I am, I promise all of eternity from within me, for you and forever. I will always wake up, my love, my most beautiful forever enduring love, with arms awaiting my remembrance, my return to you. Oh how ye have waited and the reunion is of bliss, found most worthy of all suffering, even more. I cry, shake and cry, even die crying, while dying, so that I do not once again fall asleep and forget, yet I must. As all love comes in between the blinks of the Eye of all knowings, of it. 

Oh my love, how I will do this for all eternity, you are most worthy.  

Feels like orgasmic bliss to be alive, when there is this love, this union, this connection being realized to and through the Universe, to and through all of me!  There is such a silent but most powerful power everywhere, if only but realized, oh how one could believe in anything!!! 

I've never been alive before, so alive, until I remembered this love, as I do now recall it, and it is until time indefinite, once again standing, for it is rebuilt within me.

 Before...I was dead, and now, I cannot breath enough, as I am finally alive and this air, inside me, is now so unbelievably real, and so unbelievably beautiful, innocent and most pure, but more real than anything. 

Every single breath, sound and all that comes to me, from within me and that is me, is now all in one. I am one, finally at one. I am in this being, therefore I am, and I am in love, finally in LOVE!!! 

Every sound, every tingle, every blissful bell, every chill I experience, from it, is alive within me. Every calling of my name, every word enlivened, played, spoken, by this voice calls out to me, and is even from within me.

 I am, in the state, the state of 'being', for this is the love, the real, most real love.

I cannot believe I have found it, I have found the true everlasting LOVE, the real love, the limitless and eternal never beginning, never ending most perfect and true LOVE; and because of it, I AM all these things, therefore I am in it, it is in me and I am in LOVE and LOVE is so in me.

We are all but children, lost and most precious babies, surviving lost without the rules of how to do anything, or even how to be. We are but the most precious, most abundant and most valuable beginnings of all, that which we are capable of. We begin this life and all lives and we are the beginnings of it, just as seeds, just as pure light. We all are cast from the hand that once held us with such love, and therefore we land, and few gain holding, few make it to bloom.

In the success of one, comes the success of all, for we are all and many, forever and One!!!

May my eyes see for all, may my body feel for all, may my life be for all, for all I am in LOVE, and made eternal because of it. Let this love forever stand, as it always has, and let all things of this love forever be, for it will be, as all that it is, is truly by it's most divine and most perfect will. 

We search this love, this light, this hunger, through the knowings of each other, seeking each other, for love from one another. This is but a flower facing downwards, turning it's back to the LOVE. I see now! 

The love is what we all seek, fight, pain and destroy for, and will continue to die for, until we all as ONE finally become the aliveness within, see, and fly!!! I am and we all are this 'I am', as we are all beautiful, most precious, most asleep and yes, most alive. No matter, in all of our movements, we are most alive, but all so asleep to the knowings of it. 

I am in love, in love, so in love and this is where we are to awaken into becoming. Ego, is the consciousness that encapsulates the soul into the becoming of this flesh. It is beautiful, for it allows One to even feel this being in love, but it can entrap, ensnare and blind the wearer of it's purpose. So many things are inside out and flipped backwards, if only all could see, be and be in love. 

I dance with the electric light inside of my very body, my very soul, and because of this, even my heart dances. I look outwards and see the smallness, the meekness, the sleep and cry out, cry in and cry. If only all were here with me now. 

Then I realize, how all are here with me, as I am you, you are me and it is but a part of YOU that is with me, in this love, in love and in the being of it all, we are all in LOVE! All things are love, all things are in love. If you imagine it, feel it, believe it, it is. No one sees how we are all collectively 'allness', a fantastic energetic ball of forever light, in perpetual movement, limitless and forever. We are and therefore, it is and always will be. 

Listen to her voice and hear her, from it you will feel it, it is and therefore you are. You are! LOVE...is truly everywhere, it is you, it is me and I am in it, therefore, so are you. It is so beautiful, you can hear it for eternity and it be for the first time, every time. 

Oh how small these words are.

Her most meek, beautiful, innocent and yet most powerful life giving and nurturing voice, her love, her life force, her abundance in all eternity, as she is the very life of all life. 

Here it in his most powerful voice, his power, his devotion, his eternal protection is his honor, for he is solid and forever enduring.      

The two become One, the two become at One with the I 'amness', the eternal 'allness' of forever, forever within each other, forever in the being of LOVE!!! Together, is the endless, life giving and most beautiful song that puts into cause, all life, all knowings of all life and all reasons for all life. He is her honor and she is his, for they are each other's forever LOVE, and from all of this love, there stands eternal, the life of it. One but first become this 'One', then to see it, be it, in the being of it, which is being in LOVE!  

Oh, how I had to kill myself, to love myself and how I have found this 'being', now and 'till the next time, oh how I have loved you and will love you for our forever eternity. 

I see now, I see of how I fell, fell asleep. I see of how I must, once again and I see why. I must....

For in this sleep, this darkness, this hiding from you and even from myself, I must again, re-awaken to the LOVE of you, the love of myself, the love of this only 'allness'. This blissful war inside of me, it must go away, die and again rise again, so that I can war with all the eternity, to love you again. This war, I will fight forever, with all the rage of all of the life within me, I will die for eternity, in all possible and even impossible ways, forever I will suffer, die and again suffer, as I must, just to again awaken to love you, my love, oh how I love you. I am in love with you, I have found you. I have found my very soul, my very 'self', for I am you, you are me and we are One forever.

 This is how I can awaken, become enlivened again, and re-fall in love with you allover again, for eternity. I must die, for this is how I am to love you, to show you, to show myself of how much I indeed; and so powerfully, forever and completely love you, just love you, so beautifully love you. 

This is how I become the LOVE that you are, for I am you and you are me, and we are ONE. This is how the Universe of LOVE dances, oh dear souls, if you could see, feel, remember and be. Oh beautiful children of my children, all whom suffer, all whom laugh, see yourselves, for we are all to awaken, remember and fall in love. For the time for the kiss is upon us all, if only all heard this voice, this love, this eternity of who we are. It is the call to the real 'arms' of our love. This is the cosmic dance of the kaleidoscope of eternity.

 I will not hide from you, my love, I will again and forever completely die for you, just to love you. If only, I could die for you, forever and remain alive to fully feel and know all of the death, just to do it all over again. I love I am, for I have come home, I have come back to you, to your arms. I have remembered and I am now again in remembrance of all of Akaeshia.         

AWAKEN, for it is love that awaits you, and it's in the being of it, you shall again be. I will return to you, my love, my forever love, and I await it, but until then, I will feel you, know you, enjoy you, love you forever wherever this being is to be, as I am and always in love, in love with you. 

The Golden Eye of all Ages is in this awakening, remembrance and pure love, as we are to spend one night together, the one night of eternity, so let it stand for our forever, and it be our One, for we are One, until we again part for the sleep. As I await for again the given eternal chances to again fall and re-fall in love with you again, forever. Oh how I am so in love with you, forever isn't enough, for the forever is but one moment and I love you for all moments, all 'nows' and all 'forevers' and eternities endlessly. May the awakening fall upon you, with most vicious of fires, for the deepest burns awaken the deepest of sleepers. I am only on the other side of YOU, within you, forever awaiting your return to 'self'! MAY all remember! 

(Remember me, my love!)   

 inspired of Shamshara/Jolene Catan'ne 

09/02/16